I know that you are missing me
Perhaps you always will
Perhaps that ‘missing feeling’ never strays
But instead of only missing me with sadness, try instead
To remember with a smile, our special days
I know that you are struggling
And fighting through each day
And at times you feel the clouds will never break
But tomorrow is for you to live your life, and live you must!
Life’s a gift, don’t waste a minute, it won’t wait
I know your hearts are broken now
My heart is broken too
But maybe they don’t have to break forever?
If you use the love we’ve shared, some broken bits might get repaired
And that just proves the love we had keeps us together.
I don’t want any gifts or cards,
There’s reason for my gloom,
A flame, (not from my birthday cake),
Extinguished much too soon.
Just keep telling yourself ‘you did all that you could’,
You can lie to yourself, and pretend
But it wasn’t enough,
Don’t blame me when it’s rough;
Now regret seems to be your best friend.
I tried to write
a poem here,
but had to walk away,
that’s the thing;
when you feel loss
no words to say.
It hasn’t stopped raining all day
It’s been overcast, cloudy and grey
But the sun in the sky
Says it’s pleasant and dry
Guess my heart sees it differently, hey?
A rainbow dipped in shades of grey, is really just a way to say
Stand strong and tall if faced with grief; as colour only hides beneath.
I have been stabbed in the heart, but feel nothing.
You’ve cut open the veins in my arms and turned me inside out, I feel nothing.
The gun that you put in my mouth, feels like nothing.
You have driven into and through me, you have driven into nothing.
As your poison fills my belly and burns it’s way though my skin, I feel nothing.
Your words are bullets in my skull, they feel like nothing
I love you so much.
I feel nothing.